Mountains Crumble...

and so does life. I have just had the sobering realization that my life is nothing like I thought it would be at the age of 27, nor is it where I want it to be. I.AM.MISERABLE. I keep thinking of the verse, "The Lord is my refuge...in time of need." It has become my mantra as of late. I know it's true and I know everything will always work out according to HIS plan, but that means it's on HIS time line, not mine. I am only human. I get impatient. I get selfish. I am lost.
I have confusion about my future with my relationship with my boyfriend of 3 years. I am struggling with the relationship with my mother. I am mourning the loss of a dear childhood friend after she ended the friendship out of the blue (over email no less) for no truthful reasoning to back her decision, but refuses to talk to me about it. I am confused about the future with my job, and on top of it all, I struggle with jealousy issues when coveting the lives of my friends and wishing I was where they are...happily married, lovely homes, beautiful children, etc...
I am seeking happiness. I am searching for contentment. Contentment with MY life, WITHOUT settling to obtain it. I feel like I've let some of my standards slip as of late as a way of "compromising." What happened to free-spirited, creative, sun-loving, singing, goofy, rollerblading through the golf course sprinklers with her disc-man, Emily? Where is she? I have lost her! She was my best friend. I miss her.

PSALM 23

¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

³ he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

⁴ Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

AMEN!!

New Pet Peeves

Will someone please explain to me the fascination that some people (mostly women) have with watching the food network at the gym? Seriously. Who wants to watch Rachel Ray whip up a fabulously juicy 30 minute meal DURING the dinner hour WHILE on the treadmill? Not this girl. Sure, maybe watching Paula Dean start every recipe with a stick of butter is motivating to some people, but quite honestly, it just makes me hungry and distracted from the task at hand...burning OFF the calories that got me to the gym in the first place - NOT collecting dinner ideas.

Another pet peeve that absolutely KILLS me is when someone is next to me on the treadmill and decides talking on their cell phone is somehow appropriate. Not, just a quick, "Hey, I'm at the gym" call, but a full fledged personal conversation. Really, people? If you are at the gym, I assume you're there to exercise. I will also assume that you're not exercising very efficiently because you're clearly able to slow down the treadmill and remain un-winded by the conversation. Even with turning up my headphones, I get so annoyed I can actually feel my ears burning and the dirty looks I'm throwing aren't helping either. It is this moment that I am tempted to reach over and increase the speed on their treadmill. Ha! There. Keep up with that! Good grief.

Ok. That's all. :)